Anti-other - The Void: Mind Wanderings of a Lost Soul
emaleythe
emaleythe
Anti-other
I'm so aggravated right now...i hate that picture of ali and billy, and I know that I shouldn't...I know it's just jealousy eating away at my brain, but I FUCKING HATE IT! when I first saw it this morning, I could feel the gorge rising in my throat. I don't know what it was...but then to accompany that with all the freaking squeeing over how cute they are! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRgh...couldn't take it, can't take it....I feel like starting an anti-ali community again....and I know that if Billy knew that I felt this way, I'd be lumped into a "hated fan" group in his mind, that he wouldn't like it. It's almost as if it would be easier if I knew who she was, if she was famous, I'd already have some opinion of her...but all I have is her pictures, and her pictures put the most negative ideas in my mind....the way she and he stand together, so anti-couply, that is if you go by the psychological signs of attraction and all....and the way she always seems to be smirking into the camera, like "Ha ha! I have him and you don't!" kind of look. It just makes me wary....I have this urge to find Billy and scream "Get away from her! She's one of the pod people!"....*sigh* yes, I'm a jealous, bitter, hateful bitch...but I don't care...I don't know Ali, I don't want to know Ali, and I strongly dislike her....freaking hell....and I can't understand why all of his fangirls think it's great? Part of the attraction of a star attraction is going, "whoah! he's awesome! and he's single! How can that be? Oh, but if he met me, then it would be different!". You don't look at pictures of them with their other and say, "Oh how cute! They're perfect for each other! squee!"....it's just wrong....wrong I tell you!....So that's my thoughts...paint me however you want....but damnit, don't show me another fucking picture of those two together, because from now on, I like my fandom minus the other.

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msjoplin From: msjoplin Date: September 2nd, 2004 03:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yeah, I don't like her much either :P They look so alike. Too alike.
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emaleythe From: emaleythe Date: September 2nd, 2004 06:47 pm (UTC) (Link)
well, the latest picture that has me in a tizzy is here...but another picture is

....yes, i admit she's not hideous...but god, i swear, a pod person
From: danu_2u Date: September 2nd, 2004 07:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
Horrid, horrid woman... she is! It's ok, Ema... we all know that you are really the perfect one for Billy... it's just a matter of time. He can only stay with someone who wears those kinds of shoes for so long, eh?
From: ex_tarnishe998 Date: September 2nd, 2004 08:28 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh dear God, Susan I'm so sorry to have set you off with that picture.

* huggles you tightly

The only reason I posted that picture was because I am the kind of person who is drawn to artsy photography, the kind of pictures that convey emotion without words and to me, that one did it.

Just for you my dear I'll stick the whole thing under a cut and take the thumbnail down off of the main page.

* hugs again

I'm mailing your drawing out tomorrow also and I'll include something else with it. My treat.
emaleythe From: emaleythe Date: September 3rd, 2004 06:37 am (UTC) (Link)
it's not your fault, by the time I got to the one you had posted, I'd seen it 4 times and had heard all the squeels...it was artsy, but...well you know...and lord, billy looked god awful in that picture...
From: ex_tarnishe998 Date: September 3rd, 2004 06:47 am (UTC) (Link)
you're right, Billy did look horrid in that picture... makes him look alot older than he really is...

on another note, your drawing is being dropped in the mail within the hour... you should have it by Mon, Tues at the latest.
emaleythe From: emaleythe Date: September 3rd, 2004 06:51 am (UTC) (Link)
woohoo! thank ya....I feel better today...guess you shouldn't mix a hormonal woman at that time of the month with pictures of billy and his gf lol...hell hath no fury like a menstrual woman scorned! hehehe
From: allthatishippie Date: September 3rd, 2004 04:11 am (UTC) (Link)

well...

a'ight :)
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