September 2nd, 2004

journies begin with the first step


I'm so aggravated right now...i hate that picture of ali and billy, and I know that I shouldn't...I know it's just jealousy eating away at my brain, but I FUCKING HATE IT! when I first saw it this morning, I could feel the gorge rising in my throat. I don't know what it was...but then to accompany that with all the freaking squeeing over how cute they are! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRgh...couldn't take it, can't take it....I feel like starting an anti-ali community again....and I know that if Billy knew that I felt this way, I'd be lumped into a "hated fan" group in his mind, that he wouldn't like it. It's almost as if it would be easier if I knew who she was, if she was famous, I'd already have some opinion of her...but all I have is her pictures, and her pictures put the most negative ideas in my mind....the way she and he stand together, so anti-couply, that is if you go by the psychological signs of attraction and all....and the way she always seems to be smirking into the camera, like "Ha ha! I have him and you don't!" kind of look. It just makes me wary....I have this urge to find Billy and scream "Get away from her! She's one of the pod people!"....*sigh* yes, I'm a jealous, bitter, hateful bitch...but I don't care...I don't know Ali, I don't want to know Ali, and I strongly dislike her....freaking hell....and I can't understand why all of his fangirls think it's great? Part of the attraction of a star attraction is going, "whoah! he's awesome! and he's single! How can that be? Oh, but if he met me, then it would be different!". You don't look at pictures of them with their other and say, "Oh how cute! They're perfect for each other! squee!"'s just wrong....wrong I tell you!....So that's my thoughts...paint me however you want....but damnit, don't show me another fucking picture of those two together, because from now on, I like my fandom minus the other.
journies begin with the first step

I am the counsellor!

Your answers suggest you are a Counsellor
The four aspects that make up this personality type are:
planner, ideas, hearts, and introvert

Summary of Counsellors
Search for meaning in their life and develop powerful insights
Are dedicated to helping others reach their potential
Think of themselves as gentle, peaceable and cautious
Others may find it difficult to get to know them
More about Counsellors
Counsellors have a natural understanding of human relationships and the complexities of life, which they use to help others. They search for meaning in everything and develop complex insights.

Counsellors are least likely to describe themselves as atheists, according to a UK survey.
Counsellors feel most relaxed and creative when their surroundings are organised. They are deeply private people who only share their insights with trusted friends; however, they will defend their values if challenged.

In situations where they can't use their talents or are unappreciated, Counsellors may withdraw from the people around them or become resentful. Under extreme stress, Counsellors may feel overwhelmed and be driven to organise small parts of their lives such as their kitchen cabinets or their record collection.

Counsellors typically prefer a few close relationships to a wide circle of friends.

Counsellor Careers
Counsellors are often drawn to jobs where they can help people develop emotionally, intellectually or spiritually and where they can use their imagination.

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