yeah yeah i suck at this journal anymore, i'm just trying to save up everything so that i can vomit it all out at once *laugh*.  Either that or i'm over it before i ever think to write about it.  I do have to say it's been quite a year though, now that we are coming to the close...I never would have thought that my lil mister would have grown so fast, nor that my life would have changed so monumentally not only because of him but because of everything else that has happened.

No use recapping all of that though *laugh*...as of right now, today, I have finally after almost two months kicked the bastards in the Division of Family Support to activate my medical card again.  Rofl, which reminds me...uhm I'm pregnant again.  (*waits for the screams to stop*)  We figured, hell the first kind was perfect, why not try again?  Actually, to be serious, it was a complete and utter shock and a bit rough there for awhile trying to wrap my head around it.  I'm 13 wks into this pregnancy and it's so completely different from the first one that I can't get it out of my head that this one is a girl.  Who knows? We shall see just who God has blessed me with in about 6 months.  So we're due May 7th, though that date has changed 6 times already.  And I'm honestly praying that this child will be as much a joy and wonder as Lukas.  *crosses fingers* oh please oh please oh please.

in other news, J got another job today doing data entry for Fruit of the Loom.  This is a GREAT job and i'm so freaking relieved.  Makes me have hope that somebody will hire my pregnant ass too lol.  Still sending out resumes and calling people, but have yet to land even an interview, it's so crappy.

*sigh* anything else? sure there is, but this should satisfy trix for a lil bit so she doesn't yell at me for not updating.  if she continues to kick my ass, i may get regular at this again lol.