Where's my "me time"? - The Void: Mind Wanderings of a Lost Soul
Where's my "me time"?
*headdesk* you know, I really took my alone time for granted when I was childless. Now that I have a one year old (going on four year old) always running around, I find myself completely jealous of people without kids including my former self. It's not so much that you don't have time, because I actually do have more time spent at home doing nonproductive things. Rather, it's that the time you have to fill is spent either constantly cleaning again what was just clean before the toddler tornado hit it or you find yourself segregated to one area of the house as the tornado goes through. If I try to do anything I enjoy, there's little booger under feet yelling at me because I'm not letting him join in or not watching him have all the fun. And I'm sorry, but there's only so much playing you can do with a child when you are seven months pregnant before you want to just take a break.

For example, I have neglected all photoshop learning and manipulating for the past 4-5 months simply because I just couldn't find the time or energy to do it. Yesterday, I pulled out one of my old bedraggled Computer Arts magazines and sat down to do a tutorial for a bit. As of today, I'm still working on step 21 out of 25, making all the delicate strokes on an image. The baby is currently screaming beside me trying to pull down the blinds, fighting me for control of the mouse and graphic pen, and running around the office making occasional jabs at the computer's power button. Sounds fun eh? I long for a year ago when he napped more than he was awake and was simply pleased as punch to sit in my lap while I tapped away at the keyboard. Oh woe for the mama who has lost all of her stress relieving pursuits. Woe, I say!

Anyone have any tips for finding just a half hour a day for the mama of a 14 month old? Nap times are increasingly too short....*sigh*

And one more thing for the universe, I dreamed about Stephanie last night, I'm adding her to my list of people I miss. Hoping she is well and sending out a mental goodwill for her no matter her status.

And universe, I am calling you on this shenanigan that you are calling the seventh month of pregnancy. It's not apparently not enough that I feel as heavy as 20 third world country citizens, am exhausted, and barely keeping away heartburn. Apparently not. Thus you send me constipation, followed by a hemorrhoid, which is accompanied with a severe ear infection, which leads to a perforated ear drum. This is of course treated with antibiotics, which triggers a yeast infection and unfortunately does not treat the latest eruption of skin swellings. You bring all of these ills together to face me just as I'm about to go have three to four root canals done (my first ever, surprisingly enough). I don't think that I want my body having to fight, heal, and deal with this many ills at the same time. So universe, I've called your shenanigans, so fix it. Enough is enough. No more illnesses, infections, irritations, swellings, or breakdowns of healthy bodily goings on, you hear? And sorry for anyone that had to read all that.

Feeling: frustrated frustrated
Hearing: Harry Connick Jr, because I can

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kelikala From: kelikala Date: February 10th, 2008 01:22 am (UTC) (Link)

It's been awhile since we last talked... ( Crystal here from Ohio in case you didn't know about my switch to a new journal ) and it's nice to hear about the happenings on your end!

I know all too well how you feel, although I wasn't seven months pregnant when my daughter was one, I was restricted in what I could do since at that time I had just had surgery and I was laid up for some time.

As for tips on finding more time to yourself, I found that a playpen worked wonders for me when I needed to have a half hour or an hour to myself to get work done around the house. Then again, my daughter was a quiet one and rarely got into anything and I've come to discover that little boys tend to me more rambunctious ( this coming from being around two nephews as they grew up ). Finding a babysitter for just a few hours a day does wonders too ( I had some very willing neighbors and family at the time ). Mommy online forums are good for advice too. I was a part of one early on but as my daughter got older I drifted away from it. You'll find some alone time, don't you worry :)

The yucky problems that come with a pregnancy were all too familiar with me as well. I had many issues skin rashes and major hair loss too. All you can do is keep telling yourself that once the baby arrives you'll be back to your normal ( well semi ) normal self.

Don't be a stranger, hoping to keep in touch more often and I'd love to see some pictures of your little one growing up. The only ones I had a chance to see where shortly after he arrived.

* HUGS *
devvie From: devvie Date: February 10th, 2008 02:28 am (UTC) (Link)
A friend who never planned on having kids, along with her hubby does have a daughter. She said the minute her child was born she never stops worrying. Your little guy is so young and all your time and energy have to be directed towards him. I guess Mommies get use to it as you have no other choice. Still I wish you had just an hour a day dedicated to total alone time. Okay I'll pray for it, but don't hold your breath. :D
From: wickles270 Date: February 12th, 2008 04:18 am (UTC) (Link)
When mine were boppin' around the house, I used a playpen if I needed to do something that required my attention. For their safety and for my sanity, I found it was better than trying to keep my eyes in two (three or four) places at once. When they were 1 1/2 to 2 years old, I sometimes would put a safety gate in their doorway so they could play in their room without me having to worry about them getting hurt on something while I did some dishes or made a phone call.

I hope you feel better soon. And, I swear... you got internet back and I still haven't seen ya online yet.
emaleythe From: emaleythe Date: February 12th, 2008 05:45 pm (UTC) (Link)
playpen for Lukas is like baby jail, he screams the whole time he's in there :(. but if I can ever get my hands on a gate, I'll try that.

and yeah, when the hell are you online? lol I swear I keep hoping and hoping i'll see you, instead i run into circo and his wife (blech spit). come online and entertain me! lol :)....
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