looking for the exit (emaleythe) wrote,
looking for the exit
emaleythe

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yesterday was a good day...

I felt good about myself yesterday....I did some work, played a bit, then I had a wonderful idea. I went and kidnapped Catherine, and we had some salads, then took a gander to a short drive. I finally went down a road that I've wanted to explore for 2 years, Catherine laughed when I told her that. It was inconceivable to her that I hadn't already gone down it, if I'd wanted to see what was down it for that long. We went to a graveyard down the road from my house. It was sad, many tombstones knocked over and broken. Most overgrown and unkept. I strolled along, reading stones, picking up arrangements and straightening them out. We read one weird epatath about making your grave while you are living. Then I went home, cuddled up with Jason, we got crazy and decided to convert Austin's old frog tank into a fish tank. So we went out and got gravel, river stones, some sparkly blue stuff (for me), thermometers, filters and a light hood. We set up the tank, I plant the bulbs for the water plants, and we set about stress coating it. We're supposed to buy some cheap goldfish tomorrow to establish the tank. I'll try and hold myself back and not name this first batch, as I'm sure they will soon die.

Overall, I felt good.....I am tired of my own voice though....tired of hearing myself bitch....so I will restrain from any of that as much as possible in the future. I will be action girl, not all talk. I will do what I have to in order to make myself feel good. I will do what I've always done for others, but if it ceases to stop making me feel good, then I will stop. That makes no sense to anyone but me, but that is alright. I will be action girl. I will change. I will do and not speak it. I will...you'll see. You will all see. One of these days, you will all look at me and say, "See, she did exactly what she said she would." There will be none of that, "She had such potential." It will only be success, damn it....SUCCESS!
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