okay, so today has been meaningless and unproductive....I have worked like a bitch all day trying to customize in S2, which may I remind everyone is a severe bitch. I've been trying to put a simple banner at the top of the journal, but have failed miserably (and I really wish I could pick sammy_iammy's brain right now for help)...so I ended up with a completely different style than what I wanted....*sigh* and still no pretty banner....
I didn't do dishes, or laundry, which I will pay for severly tomorrow.
I didn't get any work done on photoshop except for that one picture that's now sported on my journal page.
My doctors appointment was rescheduled again. I showed up for it yesterday at the appointed time only to find out some idiot put it in the book for the day before....so now, have to go again on wednesday....more fun.
Catherine and I haven't had any conversation in like a week, and it's killing me to have to read things in her journal instead of hearing them from her first. I know she's going through a tough time right now, and I want to be there for her, but it seems she has pulled away....I miss her terribly, and am trying to hold out till she returns, but I keep getting smacked with these weird feelings that she's never coming back. It may just be paranoia, but baby, these feelings are strong.
And now, her husband knows something but isn't allowed to tell, and it's driving me fucking crazy cause I keep thinking that it's devastating news (perhaps even my paranoia confirmed)....AND I CAN'T FUCKING TAKE IT!
so....i'll try to take some deep breaths, go wash a few dishes at 10:20 at night....and think about all the good things that are going on in my life right now....such as, Jason and I are so awesome....We haven't had any fights or disagreements in over three weeks, which is really amazing. Could it be that we finally know how to communicate with each other? Instead of starting to bicker, we've turned any difference of opinions into jokes. We can be seen day and nightly cuddling on the couch, holding hands, tickling, laughing, and smiling lovingly at each other when we don't think the other is watching. *happy sigh*....I've purchased 4 new b-e-a-u-tiful fish, all fancy guppies, which have brightened my tank and life. No names for them yet, patent is pending....I also heard from my friends Genevieve and David, who are still in NJ. They said they will be coming back at the end of the month. YAY!